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Merry Christmas

"Squirrel And Fox"...Sounds Like A Country Store.

Last night I dreamed a squirrel chewed a hole in the floor and hid my camera inside. Thankfully, the camera still worked when I got it back. I fed the squirrel to a fox.
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Where Is My Time-Turner?

It's 10:43PM. By 6:30AM, I have to be in my car driving to work. Between then and now I must do all my packing, clean my apartment, pay bills, sort through a month of mail, sleep, and get ready for work followed by a flight home.

Ready? GO!
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All Smiles For A While

Earlier this week, I accepted a new position at work. Finally, I'll be moving to Engineering to do mechanical design. Last week, I had an interview with one of the managers over there which I thought was good, but not great. However, it must have been enough for them since they turned an offer in less than four days. The group has a stellar reputation for technical ability and for treating their employees well. I'm feeling pretty good about this.

At the same time, I signed the lease on a new apartment. I won't be able to move in for about a month, but I'm glad to have a better place for much less money and a couple friends to live with, too. Can't wait to have a housewarming party!

Add to all that the excitement of Christmas approaching, a great holiday party last Friday, and the thought of going home to the Midwest in just a few days, and you have one rather content Brian. Yes, siree, life is pretty good right now. The only bad thought is realizing how much my contentment still depends on my situation. Thankfully, I know that association is breaking, and sometimes it takes a few blessings along the way to regain the strength to get back to the right path and walk upon it for the rest of the journey. Right now, I know I am very blessed indeed. God be praised.
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A New Dwelling

If all goes well, I should be signing the lease on a new apartment in the next few days. For a while there, it didn't seem like the three of us would ever agree on anything. Thankfully, we found a great compromise today. I can't wait to actually start saving money!
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To Whom It May Concern

Dear California,

I must apologize for heaping the blame of my unhappiness upon you. Truly, you do have terrible architecture, astoundingly horrendous traffic, and an economy that is so ridiculous it is difficult to believe it non-fiction, yet I should not reflect on those points when the light of truth should instead be searching my own heart.

Most tragically, I do this despite knowing better. Yes, my conscience is screaming at me. However, I don't know how to simultaneously satiate both my conscience and my pride.

I have not been myself these past four months, not because of my environment, but because of my unwillingness to see the trouble within. I wish I could promise to change that, but I doubt that I am strong enough.

All I can promise is to try. I will try not make a scapegoat of my current situation for my cowardice to hold fast to my vision and my faith that by God's strength I will attain it.

Yes, California, you are an ugly girl, but nonetheless an ugly girl who has never done me harm. Indeed, you have always extended your hand in patient friendship. We cannot be friends, though, for I extend my hand in greed and ambition. Any relationship we have will not weather the storm of time. At least, meanwhile, I will try to act friendly; maybe in hope of a miracle. Please continue to forgive me, California.
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Mess

I think I'll stay up really late tonight. No reason in particular. Though I do find that I do my best work in the very late hours. Maybe something interesting will happen.

Who am I kidding? Nothing is interesting. Come on Life, impress me.
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